Life, The Universe, and Everything.

well, gonna completely take a turn from my usual soccer blogging on here, Dynamo FINALLY won last night by the way :P, and talk about life, the universe, and Everything (ala Douglas Adams).

I've been out of work for 3 months. Partially my fault for not searching diligently, but also this economy blows. I like work because it gets me out of the house and into the general public and gets me money. Money gets me out of the house even more in the form of going to stores and movies. Its very cyclical. It also keeps me sane. There's a lot of things I want to get, but I'm unable to because I don't have money. Which also bring up....

School. I'm taking a semester off because I can't afford community college right now. School, like work, gets me out and gets me to socialize. Although, in most classes I'm ostracized for making most people look bad by sleeping through class and making A's.

Home. Holy Crap. Since I'm not employed or being educated, I get to clean and cook. Ironically, my room is the cleanest its been in a WHILE, and I can cook really kick-ass Italian food. Dad does give a kickback every once in a while. I got season 5 of the Office for mowing the yard (awesome).

The Universe. Pluto still isn't a planet. Seriously, this shit hardly changes. and btw, there's a 13th zodiac you crazy fucks. Google it.

Everything. Soccer is still going. Hockey is coming up soon. I miss SHSU. I miss all my friends. I hate the fact that my BFF is moving hours away with her fiance and I'll hardly get to hang out with her anymore. I hate that I can't find a girl who's worth my time. I hate that I got cut from the Madison Scouts without having a decent shot to show the staff what I could do. I hate the fact that I'm nowhere NEAR being done with my degree in Music, and that I'm starting to second-guess my decision in said major. I hate the fact that I'm uninspired to do damn-near anything. I hate the fact that I have so many model-painting projects going at once I can never finish them.

However, I love the fact that one day, someone or something is gonna show me something that will make everything seem that it wasn't all failed efforts. That nothing I have tried to accomplish and failed, nothing that I plan down to the miniscule details and not have the means to execute, nothing that someone has told me "you can't do it" and have no faith in me what-so-ever, will all be a smaller piece in the puzzle of my life.

I think I really am living in Hell.

Our A/C went out yesterday. It's still fucking summer. Its 90 degrees INSIDE my house. This is a rare time I'm glad we have a family thing today so I can bask in the awesomeness of a/c. When I was on tour with the scouts, I slept in a gym that was like this, but at least my sleeping bag was cool, and the floor was cool too.

God this sucks.